11 Jan 2009 Sunday

I had a dream this morning, and screw my mother for waking me up :P I wont be blogging about any dream I had but this one was specifically surreal, even to an extend significant.

I dreamt that I got married.
To my dream girl. Lol not that I have one in mind, but im positively sure that girl in my dream is her.
She must have been unwittingly lingering there on the fringe of my mind whom I have always completely deny the fact of her existence :P
Reminds me of the myth.

It wasn't the wedding, neither was naughty part :P But just a some time that I spent with my 'wife'. The exact happenings were nothing big, its the feelings I had and the realization when Im with her. I was totally in love with her. Lol that sounds cheeky, but its so true. Its the feeling of conquering my love life and the sense of fulfillment beyond anything. Simply just looking at her face makes me wanna hold her and kiss her forever, and I did :P
Its the realization that 'oh gosh! Im married! I wont be able to flirt around with girls anymore.' But turning and saw her face while she talks to her friend stunned me yet again. And yes, it was just like in the dramas, when everything else froze while I stared dazzled at her lol. My, she was just so beautiful, so beautiful it shattered my heart, so beautiful it makes me wanna cry. It instantly obliterated all thoughts of every single female on the planet, what more could I ask for?
I made a promise to myself to take care of this delicate creation of god for the rest of my life, never let her be hurt or harm by any means. And I knew I meant it then.
The setting is randomly at my primary school, the part behind the field with the basketball courts. Lots of people were there, and randomly I met Chia Hong. Really happy to see him and chat up with him. I told him I got married and when I saw the astounded expression mingled with jealousy on his face when he saw my wife, sheeshh, I was completely overwhelmed with the sense of satisfaction. Lol sorry Chia Hong XD
I turned yet again and saw her head tilted down at an angle, her expression was one of shyness and demureness tinged with sweetness. Her reflection was utterly breathtaking. Again I asked myself, how luckier could I get?
We were walking down a corridor later then and my right hand found its way round her waist. For the thrid time, I gazed to her face, was immediately lost in her dark round eyes accentuated by her long lashes. Goshh, those are honest eyes, eyes that you can look into and truly trust to be loyal, eyes that you can tell are smiling from the heart. The thought that I was the only one that solely possessed her forever was so immensely overwhelming :P passionately devoured her lips lol.

Its the mindset of being settled, with the only one I would ever commit to, the immeasurable gratitude to everything that had happened, and the tremendous appreciation for life that left me blown away.

What makes it all the more unforgettable is that the feelings are so real that they still come back to me whenever I think about her. Even as I lie in bed with the pillow drenched in last night's drool, the sense of accomplishment and consummation is still felt with her soft lips pressing against mine.

Lol laugh all you like, I know its silly and ridiculous XD I was laughing at myself recalling the whole dream this morning. Lol I know it sounds so fake, you get them only in Korean dramas.
Nonetheless, it striked me hard and left a smile on my face XD
I thought I am never actually exposed to these emotions before, and its certainly uncannily surreal to experience it in a dream XD

Think Im just desperate :P