Nothing in this world that's worth having comes easy..

My Secret to Success

2010-07-26T20:36:00.001-07:00

The key is understanding and determination.

Understand myself and realize what I am after in life. Be determined to achieve it. Simple, obvious, stark is the road to success. Everyone is aware of it, but so few take time off their ‘busy’ lives to reflect what the answers are.

I find myself in a quiet room with a clean piece of paper and a wooden pencil, neat. Rid my mind of all distractions and really think about what I want to achieve out of life. When you are moments away from dying and you find yourself lying in your death bed, which are the memories you would choose to take pride in, and which are the ones you would rather had not happened.

I am surprised how little I have jolted down after what seems like hours of contemplation. I stare down at my feeble list of what I had once imagined to be filled with glamorous ambitions and exciting activities and sigh at my ignorance for the past 19 years.

“I want to be a respectable, loving and healthy guy.”

This straightforward sentence ultimately summarises the person I see myself becoming and everything I see myself achieving.

What follows the set target is the discipline to work towards it. Determination comes easy when you are striving for the things you want in life, it shouldn’t feel tough to work towards what you yearn for.

A wise friend once told me he ‘feels excited to plan for his life.’ I wonder where had that motivation once ignited so fierce in me gone. Now that I have discovered it yet again, I swear I would hold on to it very dear.

My Epiphany

2010-07-22T14:07:00.001-07:00

He is hailed as a visionary, genius, prodigy, an alien even.

"He came from China where he studied no english and in merely one year he topped the class with an A!" as quoted by a 'commoner’, the same fellow claimed that “he was just being himself! Doing everything at the same time!”

He gets everything in life, let me rephrase, everything he wants: friends, family, music, games, opportunities, respect, determination, passion, a meaningful life. He is the epitome of perfection in everyone’s eyes. Parents use him to demoralize their kids when they are not performing academically adequate. Classmates aspire but never know how to be someone like him. Everyone speaks of him like this mystical creature living in a different dimension, which we can only struggle to keep abreast with him, which we are never able to surpass him.

We somehow simply just accept the unequivocal fact that he was extraordinary. As ashamed as I was, I was no different from anyone else, never making the slightest effort in figuring out the reason behind his incredible feats. However on that fateful night I changed my perception of life I was blessed with the fortunate opportunity to have an intelligent conversation with him.

I was overwhelmed by his tenacity in leading a fruitful life. He developed this ‘system’ as he called it from the book: ‘Getting Things Done’ by David Allen. In a nutshell, he organizes his life based on paper, except it’s not like our conventional diary; it is a database of his thoughts. Imagine Dumbledore’s pensive where you store excessive thoughts to be pondered over later, where you revisit when you want to review your mind, where your brain’s most intricate notions and ideologies are formulated. And what’s amazing is that is just the tip of the iceberg.

With all those knowledge safely tucked under the blanket of his virtual document, he accesses them in extreme detail to delineate the ultimate targets he is striving for. After assiduously substantiating his claims of he wants to do with his life with evidences from the database of information, he lives by a series of very systematic set of timetable he laid down after he has done the things. In other words, he writes his scheduled things after he has done them, while retaining the astonishing effect of keeping on track with his target.

My pathetic description of his profound work is doing injustice to the sheer magnitude and potency of the ‘system’. As I stood there getting blown away by how determined he is in milking life for all it’s worth, I was left thinking about the countless apologies I should have said to my parents, friends, people I have met that tried so hard to help me become who I want to be but to no avail because of my obstinate childishness.

I had always pride myself on knowing what I was doing with my life.

Now I take pride in my ability to fall and get back on track.

早熟

2009-02-03T16:59:00.000-08:00

Oh my god. That movie is simply fantastic.
I can now confidently choose the security question asking whats yours favourite movie without having to ponder over what it would be. Though not anymore.
Only Junkai knows what kind of movies I like ;) and this one has definitely crossed the line, in fact its so far beyond the line that the line appears to be a dot to it.
Its not the trailer type of adrenaline rush, not the horny type of hottie chicks, not solely the romantic type of relationship, but the type of movie that makes me reflect, hard.

I was overwhelmed with emotions throughout the whole movie. Smiling at the beginning of their naive teenage romance, frowning when they realise she is pregnant, biting my lips as they struggle to survive. And oh well.. erm a little bit horny as they were about to copulate..

But seriously, it makes me think, about my life, what I really want to do, how I really want to live.

The movie really reflects how important it is to have a successful career. Not for my own pride, not for my own dignity, but as a foundation to entitle true love the right to blossom. No matter how pure, how niave, how innocent the love is, it wouldn't survive in today's harsh society. I don't want to be in a situation where I find my love but I can't support her. If there is one thing I can change, it would be to obliterate this crude reality.

There is this line towards the ending when the guy is being sued on court:
在本案中,被告确实是犯了错.
错的是他年轻,幼稚,冲动.
可是他同时做了一件事,就是他尝试去承担他的责任,尽了他最大的努力去照顾我女儿.
就这件事来说,我应该感到惭愧.
因为他爱我的女儿,爱的比我单纯,爱的比我真.
My god, how noble is that. That kind of love is so innocent and beautiful, but yet they suffered so much for it, almost reached the brink of breakdown. Its so unfair and saddening to fail this beautiful fairytale because of the inability to sustain the family, because being ignorant at a young age. And for that, I will make sure it never happens.
I must say I am not claiming that I will definitely find the perfect girl, in fact there is a good possibility that I never will (not trying to be pessimistic here, just being practical). Im just saying it would really be a pity if it happens and there are so many obstacles along the way that threaten to destroy it.
Of course people say no pain no gain, hais, I have no comments on that :(

Other than that, the film highlights many other aspects of life that people have prevalently overlooked. But as far as how its related to me at the moment, that revelation is certainly the most impactful one that will stay by me for many years to come.

2009-01-11T10:59:00.001-08:00

11 Jan 2009 Sunday

I had a dream this morning, and screw my mother for waking me up :P I wont be blogging about any dream I had but this one was specifically surreal, even to an extend significant.

I dreamt that I got married.
To my dream girl. Lol not that I have one in mind, but im positively sure that girl in my dream is her.
She must have been unwittingly lingering there on the fringe of my mind whom I have always completely deny the fact of her existence :P
Reminds me of the myth.

It wasn't the wedding, neither was naughty part :P But just a some time that I spent with my 'wife'. The exact happenings were nothing big, its the feelings I had and the realization when Im with her. I was totally in love with her. Lol that sounds cheeky, but its so true. Its the feeling of conquering my love life and the sense of fulfillment beyond anything. Simply just looking at her face makes me wanna hold her and kiss her forever, and I did :P
Its the realization that 'oh gosh! Im married! I wont be able to flirt around with girls anymore.' But turning and saw her face while she talks to her friend stunned me yet again. And yes, it was just like in the dramas, when everything else froze while I stared dazzled at her lol. My, she was just so beautiful, so beautiful it shattered my heart, so beautiful it makes me wanna cry. It instantly obliterated all thoughts of every single female on the planet, what more could I ask for?
I made a promise to myself to take care of this delicate creation of god for the rest of my life, never let her be hurt or harm by any means. And I knew I meant it then.
The setting is randomly at my primary school, the part behind the field with the basketball courts. Lots of people were there, and randomly I met Chia Hong. Really happy to see him and chat up with him. I told him I got married and when I saw the astounded expression mingled with jealousy on his face when he saw my wife, sheeshh, I was completely overwhelmed with the sense of satisfaction. Lol sorry Chia Hong XD
I turned yet again and saw her head tilted down at an angle, her expression was one of shyness and demureness tinged with sweetness. Her reflection was utterly breathtaking. Again I asked myself, how luckier could I get?
We were walking down a corridor later then and my right hand found its way round her waist. For the thrid time, I gazed to her face, was immediately lost in her dark round eyes accentuated by her long lashes. Goshh, those are honest eyes, eyes that you can look into and truly trust to be loyal, eyes that you can tell are smiling from the heart. The thought that I was the only one that solely possessed her forever was so immensely overwhelming :P passionately devoured her lips lol.

Its the mindset of being settled, with the only one I would ever commit to, the immeasurable gratitude to everything that had happened, and the tremendous appreciation for life that left me blown away.

What makes it all the more unforgettable is that the feelings are so real that they still come back to me whenever I think about her. Even as I lie in bed with the pillow drenched in last night's drool, the sense of accomplishment and consummation is still felt with her soft lips pressing against mine.

Lol laugh all you like, I know its silly and ridiculous XD I was laughing at myself recalling the whole dream this morning. Lol I know it sounds so fake, you get them only in Korean dramas.
Nonetheless, it striked me hard and left a smile on my face XD
I thought I am never actually exposed to these emotions before, and its certainly uncannily surreal to experience it in a dream XD

Think Im just desperate :P

The closing ceremony 2008

2008-12-30T17:56:00.000-08:00

This year's gone in a flash. Ridiculously fast.

I would like to take time to thank my parents, my mother in particular, for taking me out of my own life, letting me see what the society is really like.
Would like to thank my dad, for the most memorable mail that will shine enternally in my inbox.
Would like to thank Junkai, for the best 18th birthday present anyone could receive: a sincere text all the way back from Singapore just 13 minutes past 12.
Would like to thank Kachun, for giving more definition to the word friendship by his actions.
Would like to thank Yanwen, for always believing in me, and a true friend anyone can only dream for.
Would like to thank Renbin, for I always know you will be there for me.
And would like to thank Shiyuan, for establishing this platform for me to keep close in touch with her.

Thank you.

The Revelation

2008-09-18T12:45:00.000-07:00

I never thought I would be blogging anytime so soon.

I have such a strong feeling of regret and disgust that I had long forgotten since my last life.
Never had I realise I was so selfish, stubborn and arrogant. Since I begin to remember things, I was striving for perfection, especially honing my character, but this setback got to be one significant milestone in my entire life. It turns out that whats standing in front of me is what I have always overlooked. That would be the cause of my downfall, if I had not attend to. I always thought they would have understood, but in reality, everyone needs reassurance. Simple, hardcore fact.

You just got to take time off your busy schedules, sit down and look around. Some things are there all the time, waiting to be discovered, waiting to be corrected, waiting to enlighten the poor soul trapped inside your own desire.

Please do, its worth all the things you have done.

无题

2008-07-03T15:29:00.000-07:00

Hey people.
since the ending of the exams, i can be often seen lurking around the horny neopets, staring at the dota screen manipulating treant protector to destroy his own world tree, or simply fighting over Thomas train with my brother to entertain him.
my summer holidays just started and i really don't see how i am supposed to spend the next 6 weeks meaningfully. all i can come up with at the moment would be to rent a chair in the library and spend the rest of the days rotting there. :(
anyways, here are some dota screenies Kahhow might enjoy :)

luna is so gay! just farm till helm and butterfly then go satanic and GG.

Omg, i love techies. i started playing him a few weeks before i got banned from bnet. totally owned. think hes gonna be my favourite hero.

no comments. imbaness.

it wasnt till when i randomed and repicked into this guy that i realise how gay he is. his goo is definitely making pudge rot on the spot.

Pretty fella, sadly didnt get the chance to buy rapier.

No comments. imba noob hero.

Even more noob than sa.

This is interesting! been playing pudge war for quite some time. surprisingly i realise i am pretty good at it. i own in like 4/5 games.
my item build will be grapple hook, max bloodseeker claw, max techies mines(spam!!), a few levels, max niax lifesteal then lantern.
pump radius and length hard initially. then go for a little bit of damage. pump full speed when you got lantern.
gayness.
get tiny arm late game. dont throw grenades. hook him over, throw him and hook him again. almost kill instantly. xD
just a brief guide. lots more into it. :D

its really sad that now i cant play dota anymore T.T. cuz there was something wrong with my computer and the frozen throne game turned pirated, that was all right as the game could still work but soon till the next update i couldn't get the new version and was denied from bnet.

Well, these are random. but really .______.

lol. im sure you sympathise with my pudge lifestyle(rotting lifestyle). i will try to make the most out of it. so do have fun in singapore people! 不要生在福中不知福！XD

2008-06-26T12:07:00.001-07:00

http://www.neopets.com/~Advantina

Exams over

2008-05-27T14:17:00.000-07:00

Wow i realise many people actually came to tag my blog! Thank you guys, i really appreciate it i must say :D And even sherilyn left a comment! :O lol.
so exams are over today. should feel relieved and freed, but yea i do feel relieved and freed. not that much though. cuz i just took 3 exams. and they are really not hard. not promising that i would do well, but certainly hope i would.
so now i am left with nothing to do again 0.0 really could spend the time to do some reading. looking back i havnt actually really read books. i could also spend the time shopping. i have no more clothes in the wardrobe. i could do some exercise, hmmm gotta look for places to play badminton, i am turning rusty T.T i could meet up with some girls, ahhh, that sounds pretty good. or some guys.
or both together. to a movie.

study

2008-05-05T04:32:00.000-07:00

i really should be studying.
i am wasting my life away doing any other things other than eat sleep and study.

hey

2008-04-11T17:25:00.000-07:00

i really should update my blog.
provided that all the free time i am playing dota and lurking on neopets.

i made a screenie of a battle furion i was playing just now. then i copied something else. damn. =/ that was one of the finest games ever, trust me man. the creep kills reached 700..

hows everyone doing in singapore man, i miss you people. >.<
its so boring living here. my life just revolve around study, dota and neopets.
no more badminton, no outings, and sadly not much friends. the only productive thing i appear to be doing is study, which is driving me crazy. XD

If you think LAN in singapore is expensive, you really should come and take a look in glasgow. i went to LAN a week ago and its 10 pounds for 4 hours. which is 30 sing dollars for 4 hours. WTH?!? Comon people, go and indulge yourself in LAN gaming while you can still afford it.

on a brighter note, the weather is turning better. (:
its getting warmer and the days are longer than ever. its still bright at almost 9pm XD but the shopes still closes at 6. LOL.
so not used to it, the streets turn empty after 6.

bleah blleaeaahhh bleeaaahh..

2008-03-22T05:57:00.000-07:00

i said it so often that it changes my mood. x(
somehow somethings just appear and i couldnt do anything to help it. >.<

bleah, this is not like me.
shi bin will laugh like mad if she can see what i am doing now. wobbling my body in my chair and shaking my head like a dummy. smiling at the thought of shibin laughing. you know, 安慰 and 无奈.
i know i have more important things to do than lost myself in that.
but i cant yea? at least not for now.
hope it will be over soon, i know it wont be. bleah.

sometimes the angmos are really cute..

2008-03-09T05:21:00.000-07:00

i went out with 5 friends yesterday evening to dine out at a chinese buffet restaurant. there is this half section where there is chinese steamboat and the other section is chinese food buffet. the words printed on the walls of the chinese steamboat buffet are written in chinese, fan3 ti3 characters.
we sat at the chinese buffet corner and one friend of mine asked me if i can read and write those words, i replied yea. then he commented that it must be really hard to draw houses all the time... LOL..
at the chinese steamboat corner almost all the people there were chinese. its just like the steamboat we had in marina which had closed down =/ my friends were fascinated by the fact that the people actually took raw meat from buffet. they were even more stunned when the person picked up raw meat with their chopsticks and dip it into the steamboat and put it into their mouths..

although it is freaking freezing here, but there are many pleasant things as well. apart from the pretty girls, there are no ants or mosquitoes around here. surprising eh? yea, the same goes to lizard, cockroaches, spiders, millipedes and STRAY CATS.. LOL. i think that is the characteristic of singapore. stray castrated cats. xD i didnt realise it when begin to miss the buzzing sound of mosquitoes at night and the pleasure of squishing ants on my dining table..

moving on with life..

2008-03-05T09:57:00.000-08:00

there is this PE teacher in the school. his name is mr faquar, and is pronounced as mr f**ker...
the people are fascinated by my ability to spin the pen.. spin the book.. doing the rubrics cube.. they are like seeing aliens coming from mars..
none of the people i know plays dota though. no one heard of it before. warcraft only means standard game and world of warcraft..

dead dead dead..

2008-02-28T08:58:00.000-08:00

hey guys i am back after a long break from blogging. :)
there is nothing much going on. have been studying.. wow.. would be good if i can take the exams next year may and go university in august. sounds pretty cool eh?
so just mug and mug.
and play games of course. dota with the europeans.. xD its a universal language. cant understand what they talking about cuz sometimes they speak german and french and all kinds of funny languages. but stilll can pwn them with the singaporean slang.

Nothing is perfect, yea?

2008-02-04T09:50:00.000-08:00

Most people here smokes, my classmates almost half of them smokes. =/ Someone even offered me a cigarette, and asked me if i have a light. xD
lol it is not safe here at night, in the streets. there is this group of people called "neds" here, it is used to describe anyone who doesnt study and hang around the streets at night and go around annoying people. from what i heard from my friends, they go around in groups and irritate you and make fun of you and sometimes just snatch the things they want from you. >.< eeww, doesnt seem like a good place to stay eh? Even the locals do not want to walk out alone at night.
i lost my pencil box, and i went around the city looking for a stationery shop. took me half an hour to walk in the freezing wind to find a ulu shop selling stationeries. the mechanical pencil cost 1.40 pounds. which is 3.60 sin dollars. >.< and its not top quality either. the lead cost 2.90 pounds = 8.70 sin dollars. O.O

LOL, this is hilarious..

2008-02-03T18:44:00.001-08:00

i was playing neopets (as usual) and this advertisement came out. i couldnt resist the urge to make a screenie. :D
TNT(the neopets team) freezes people's account for even the slightest mention of sexual content.. i got a warning letter from TNT previously as i tried to say that i am half naked(in singapore).. so we are not supposed to say, just LOOK....

so tedious to keep a blog... =/

2008-02-01T12:29:00.000-08:00

i will try to keep it going though :)
here are more pictures..
no girls still... zzzz, i am sorry guys i am as annoyed as you all..

This is what wear when i go out.. a shirt a jumper and a thick jacket.. xD

there is this huge slope beside my house, i think scotland is situated on hills and the streets are never flat.. pretty tiring to climb slopes on the way to school..
derek would love this though, sprinting uphill for soccer trainings, mind you this is really really steep... you wont want to fall.. xD

These are the buildings, its not a special area where the buildings are maintained this way, they are all over the place. pretty cool eh? :)

Who would want to go on a tour in an open double decker bus with freezing winds slapping your face.. i would not be able to open my already-so-tiny eyes..

The wind is so so strong here, i couldn't even walk straight in the howling gale, its hard to imagine when you wear short sleeve shirts and stroll under the sun in Singapore. you hardly see the sun here, and holding up an umbrella is totally ridiculous, saw once someone's umbrella got blown away, its really blown away, into the sky like a helium balloon. O.O

it is soooooooooooo troublesome to upload pictures... ._______.
ok la thats about it for now.. so long.. xD

its getting calm..

2008-01-26T09:55:00.000-08:00

and calmer and calmer..
and i am getting lazy. i dont study everyday, neither do i play badminton. i spend more time sitting on the bed playing psp, and i sleep 9 hours each day.. i guess thats why people are fat here. sheesh, i need to move..

Pictures!

2008-01-20T03:27:00.000-08:00

yea i am sorry people, the pictures came in late. couldnt get one with the pretty girls at the moment. xD it will come...... very soon..... i shall not comment on the guys..

so this is where i stay, in a flat lol not a house.

the storeroom.

my bedroom, such thick blanket.... :D

toilet..

the doors.

and more doors...

living room..

the other view..

Yupps this is where i stay. quite a nice place, really quiet at night. :)

my 2nd day in school..

2008-01-15T09:32:00.000-08:00

so yeah, i had my second day in lenzie academy. it is really distracting you see, some of the girls(i would say many of them) are just irresistably cute man. it is really you cannot tahan them. it is like almost every class i go there would be one. xD maybe because they do a lot of makeups and wear pretty clothings. but still they are rather attactive.
lessons are all right. i am taking english, math, physics, human biology and business management. english is a bit difficult. business management is CRAP! i know absolutely nothing about the subject and the class is like preparing for the national exams already? xD others are doing their work and i am like staring at the question booklet. lol. i guess i really need to catch up on that for the next year.
physics, math and biology are easy, all the stuffs i had once forced into my mind without thinking.
you dont need to care about your attire to school. man, you guys would love it here. they dye their hair and tuck out their shirts. they wear their tie as if they are clubbing. the girls dressed up for fashion shows. and there is this girl sitting beside me in class today doing make ups when the teacher is talking in front @.@
swearing here is not a problem at all. someone actually commented that i seldom swears and finds me wierd. xD
the weather is still as frosty as ever. stepped on a puddle of ice(water) today and slipped. luckily i didnt fall. was quite malu though, the girls are giggling behind me. xD didnt dare to turn my head and look at their faces. lol.

So i stepped into Lenzie Academy..

2008-01-14T09:14:00.000-08:00

that is the name of my school. the math teacher brought me to my registration class and assigned a buddy for me to bring me around the school. His name is Ross, if i remember correctly.
i guess some things are really different, we are supposed to move to various classrooms after each lesson instead of teachers coming to each of our class. and we dont stick with our same class, so i guess we dont have a class after all. >.< the classes are rather small, some are only 7 pupils while others are around 20 pupils. never like the large classes back in singapore.
there is this guy and girl standing together in the middle of the crowded sticking together and kissing passionately, while people are surrounding them pushing each other around. xD
we pay for our food by our fingerprint which is like our account and we top up money into it.
lessons are all right though. the physics and bio are things i have studied before. math is a bit troublesome, got to pick up my A math knowledge i left in my classroom after O levels. english is like literature. i think i would seriously have problems with that. and business management. well rather new to me. study things like quality and market and efficiency all these stuffs.
students dye their hairs. there is this girl with hot pink hair sitting behind me during english class. lol.
the guys are HUGE. seriously. All of them are almost a head taller and much wider than me. i seem to be a drawf standing among yellowed haired yao mings.
haha, i will have to buck up my english, couldnt understand what they are talking about with their scottish accent. and they speak really fast. really must resist the urge to shoot them back with chinese. xD
hmms, i think that is my first day of school, will keep updating. xD

I am going to school!!

2008-01-13T02:44:00.000-08:00

Yupss I am. Lol. Very very nervous about it. I would be so extra among the sea of angmos. Well I guess that is unavoidable xD have to go to school eh? I went to meet the principle, he wasn’t in and we found the sec 5 head teacher. He kindly showed us the way around the school. Whow, the uniform for girls have such short skirts! It is like damn damn short la. If got caught by lee lee mui sure kena get beheaded one. Wonder how they jump around without getting…… or maybe they don’t care xD bllleeehhhhhhhhh....

It is still as cold as ever. Think it is below 0 degrees today. The water puddles on the ground are already frozen solid. Seen people wearing skirts bare legged on the streets. Hmms I don’t know how they are able to survive. Imagine stuffing yourself in the fridge naked... >.<

No doubt it is the other side of the world..

2008-01-11T02:04:00.000-08:00

the buildings are filled with doors, and they call them "fire doors". they should be kept close at all times to prevent the spread of fires. i need to go through 5 doors before i can reach the room of my flat, not counting the number of doors in the house. they so kiasu eh..
the water is freezing. everytime i wash my hands they go numb. >.<
the buildings are nice, they are built like castles with the olden days taste. very very cool. the town here looks like diagon ally xD with the buildings like hogwarts. well, except that they are not so tall.
there are supermarkets here xD like ntuc, they call it "testa". no wet markets here lol, i dont think they wake up that early to get the fresh vegtables and meats ready, they sleep till 8 remember? xD

in the mist of yellow hairs.....

2008-01-10T03:46:00.000-08:00

stood me! the one and only asian! lol.
yups i reached scotland. bbbbrrrrr.. it is freeezing cold here! less than 5 degrees..
i was buried under my sweater and jacket. for once in my life i am fat and round. i cannot see my toes when i look down!! XD
the girls are rather pretty though :D but their curves cant be seen under their jackets. :( bleah.. xD
there is subway here! 2 pounds for a 15 inch bread. around S$6..
never see any chicken rice stalls, cant even be like ms ek, get one for 6 pounds.. or is it more than that, dont remember.
time difference from singapore is 8 hours. it would be 8pm in singapore while it is 12 pm here in scotland.
the day is really short! really really, it only light up around 8 am and it turns dark at 4pm! all the shops closes at 7pm latest!?! what the hell? and there is no one on the streets after 8pm. no wonder angmos are so fat. they sleep 12 hours eh?!?!
hmm thats about for now, many other interesting things coming up. gonna look up some pretty girls and take pictures of them. ziyi wants it xD

my days are numbered...

2007-12-30T11:50:00.000-08:00

real soon i would be leaving singapore for scotland.
looking back at the years i spent in singapore, i really couldnt bear to leave it behind. but nonetheless i have to leave, after all not that everyone had the opportunity to travel overseas to study. xD i really feel fortunate to be so privileged.
to all my friends in singapore: keep in touch.

oh

2007-12-24T07:50:00.000-08:00

Zzz, holidays are ending soon. and i would be leaving for scotland on the 8th of january. xD

the first

2007-12-21T23:27:00.000-08:00

hmms a dear friend of mine is very annoyed by my dead ex blog, by doing her a favour i create a new one. :D